if

if one does not get what one wants thou shall get what one needs..

I had another chance to gain a bit more faith in this simple truth.

and that is enough for posh high style.

I retained something today.

I am not going to loose it.

not this time.

not now.

freedom

not much?

You say I had it?

It is not something you can touch.

It is something you can only feel. Inside.

Now I feel it. Combined with strength it is omnipotent.

Now. Step by step I will learn to live. Live like I should. Like I want.

Don Quixote is part of the history now. Recorded in my first diary. It is dedicated to someone. no. not to someone. it is more impersonal now. it is dedicated to something I felt!

btw, if you wonder - how to get rid of something, I can tell you something. you just have to have enough of that.

I had. I feel I had now. I am ready. for a small step. a tiny little step. the trick is there is no such thing as a small step, if  it is followed by another small step. and another. and one more. it will lead your highway to your dreams. If you dare to open yourself, and dare to dare! think less, feel more, act quickly. simple. and doable.

SO let me do it!

Thank you after all. Just thank you!

Farewell!!