I don't want to believe it.

I've been watching people lately. How they behave. How they speak. How they live. And I refuse to believe in what I am discovering. But I will have to.

the issue is not with them, it is with me. I tried to be different. so far - not that successful. others do not consider me to be attractive. well, generally - there are always some exclusions. for instance - I can easily trace location of one friend of mine - as I all the time see different countries in the logs for my blog.

Is this mostly about the language difference? Really? then people are just lazy, including me - as I am not switching to language I don't know and not trying to get to know it.
So.. I am arriving at the point I've already been before, but on slightly deeper level.

Friendship is dead

welcome [mutually] beneficial relationship.

farewell, all and godspeed.